I always stay up without sleeping and think to myself:
How funny it actually turns me upside down, and swings me from one place to another.
And yet somehow its funny how things always turn alright in the end.
Then, somehow I live to share about the one more bit of the jigsaw that I managed to piece together.
Uni has been straining the 'veena' in me. I don't want to complain how much work I have got to do (because some people would have even more than me) but sometimes while in the midst of doing work I find myself pondering the same question over and over again.
I really don't know whether if I have chosen the course that I want. Like, I don't know whether accounting is something I want to do for the rest of my life. Okay, maybe not for the rest of my life but for the next 30 years I suppose?
No doubt, (don't get me wrong) I really want to do well in uni. Since there is no crazy scientific-rocket-science-math-problems that I have to do throughout my course in uni, I guess I have no excuse not to do well right?
Maybe this is just like how metal is shaped. With lots of knocking, hot fire and sharp sounds that come with the whole process. We all have to shaped into a shape society wants us to, in able to be made into use. Just like unshaped metal, how do they even look like, I don't know. Their significance is as much.
But then, each different metal serves a different purpose as well! You can't just take any metal to make anything. Imagine what if they used silver or gold to make aeroplanes?! Confirm cannot fly lah! This is when aluminium comes in. Then walah! Aeroplanes can fly.
So what if: halfway I find that I don't match? Where do I belong?
Answer is, I really don't know. Are U turns allowed?
I know life is more to just career and studies! But things like these are just inevitable. We all need to be some part if the society, I just don't want to end up in the wrong department.
And why do I worry? Worrying is just like stressing over problems that cease to exist.
At least, it is good and a relief to know, that someone is always there for me in every step I take. And with every hurdle that I have to jump over, I know He will lower that hurdle for me. And if lowering that hurdle won't work, he'll grow me extra long legs or even give me wings to fly through!
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11
Really, I should stop worrying, close my eyes and get to bed.
5 rants:
Well, majority people let society shape them, hence today society lack of individualism. everyone is different, and we shouldn't let society shape us, but we should shape ourself to what we want to be. not what society expect us :P
I think most important is u have interest and passion in ur course, as u will be in the course and workplace in years to come. Pray to God to seek for guidance for ur future :)
eh I really love this post. It was encouraging. Loved your metaphor about aluminum used to build planes rather than gold or silver.
Taking accounting as your major doesn't mean you have to be accountant for the rest of your life. It is just a part of life where you get the cert and prepare yourself for something greater in life. In your future, you can build your own dreams apart from being accountant :D
We'll never be sure what the future holds for us.
While doing our best, we shall pray and believe in God guidance.
Stay optimistic! Believe in what you've chosen.
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